Today I made my first formal announcement about moving to Neoma and transitioning. Honestly, I am nervous and not sure of what to expect. I know some will be upset, others won’t understand and others will be fine with it. It is a big change.
I love Nyte and she has been a huge part of me or should I say that I have been a huge part of her. LOL! I have been known as Nyte since I was 16 years old. That is a long time. Most of my life. Even though Nyte the avatar has only been around since February 2006, it still is a long time for an avatar. I know peeps that have been around quite a bit longer.
I am grateful to those that will support this move and I mourn with those that will miss Nyte and her antics. I don’t want to loose my friends that I have made over the years, but sometimes these things are necessary. Some of this is due to a real life situation that I just can not talk about. Other parts are due to the bashing I have taken in life the last few years. I guess in a way, all of this is representative of the changes in me. Parts of us die, new growth appears and change smiles upon us.
I did keep my initials, intentionally. There will always be a part of Nyte there. History will always remain like a story book slowly forgotten over time. But the remnant exists and thus continues on in a slightly different form.
Now I know the questions will come…..why not tell everyone when you first made the decision. Its simple. I am a stubborn gal and did not want anyone talking me out of what I felt I needed to do. Yes, I am that stubborn and sassy. It is not much of an excuse, but its the truth.
I guess I needed time to move into my new self, feel comfortable in my new skin (O.o) and have a chance to regrow the parcel and find a form of expression. I can no longer draw as my hand is experiencing paralysis from the elbow break and surgery. It will take a while to regain its usage back completely. They say about 6 to 8 months and up to a year. I had to have time to pout, cry, kick, scream, whine, yell and have multiple tantrums. It has been a hard good year.
Now its time to get over it, suck it up and drive on and live. I needed an extended moment to find a creative in me again. That is the best way I can say it. A new moon hit my life and thus I am named Neoma or New Moon. Let’s see where this adventure will take us.
Now I have the other aspects to do, since I have done this sort of backwards……I have to chase down some peeps that have no idea and will spank the tar out of me when I tell them and they see its been so and I said narry a word. It’s okies. I gladly accept all deserved spankings. LOL!